thinking...thought process

soo...even though i said that i would stop thinking about where i was going with my work, i continued to think and of course everything i was thinking ended up in what i wanted to produce and i could not feasibly produce what i was thinking of making. So i've simplified the site specific that i had planned because origionally there was too much going on, i had the pod(clay plant holder) along with a wire guided cage for it to grow along for me to manipulate, but now i think that it would be beneficial to just have the pod on the body where the plants just grow and you think about the relationship and how the plan grows with the body and how the context affects the meaning/translation that the viewer sees and understands, some examples are growing out of the stomach and how works with the body, but at the same time it could possibly symbolizes fertility. other places i'm planning on working with are the wrists, shoulders, ears, potentially the mouth and thinking about how placement can affect the meaning and how it can potentially grow into jewelry on its own without any guidance, limited guidance because i will potentially manipulate the plants with the other plants growing alongside each other, this is mainly because i have a hard time getting away from the body, i'm trying but when i'm looking at my drawings of solitary free standing sculptures there is no interaction with the space around it, i've drawn site specific ones also and it is just not the same, i have a hard time comprehending space when the work is not surrounding a form (or body), eventually i can get out of this state of mind, it is potentially not the correct subject matter for free standing, non-body adornment, because in the past it came natural to create wall/floor sculptures with what subject matter i was working on, and i've realized that i should not force something that i cannot envision it should just happen.